The curves ... could have as well put as iCurves !
Its weird and astonishing too to look back and notice the curves through which I have been through. The very aim of my life has been changing radically at such a remarkable rate and with every change I feel that I took a more mature decision and notice a more satisfying and happier feeling !
It might be, I guess, because I feel increasingly independent and responsible with every decision I take. This realisation has come in very recent past because of the decisions I took at CEL and about that one(;-)).
BITS has been an ethereal experience !
I remember, my dad giving me my first glimpses of a campus life… when we had visited NIT Suratkal ( it included - the secret hangout spots, the beach walks, their hostel life et al) I got a different high out of just listening to all that. Also, had visited the BITS campus before taking admission( around Mid-July) … it was the most horrifying experience ! Temperatures nearing 50C, raapchic roads leading to the campus, and absolute nil attendance ! But still, the mere feeling of being on campus … all by myself … somehow defeated all those negatives which had blinded my parents … who preferred me going to UICT, Mumbai.
It began pretty well at Pilani. After all those hyped-up interactions of Departments and Clubs … was very happy to be part of CEL … don’t know why ( never knew that it would take centre stage in shaping my FUNDA’s) !?! Back then … I wanted ( rather I knew) to be gaja ghotu, and go for an MS and then a PhD… WOW … wasnt that a good baccha like ? But …
There has always been a BUT …
Pilani …definitely has something in it, just being here changed eveything ! It teaches you to learn everything by yourself. Till then, I used to just blindly follow the advice my parents gave … and I am so grateful I did that ! But, this was very much needed as well. I was at crossraods, and Pilani gave me a platform where I could experiment … with things more important than LED’s, chips and chemicals.
Never had I been such a game freak, never before had I watched soooooooo many Movies, never before did I have those mind boggling laccha sessions at CEL, never had I sweared before so much … nor ………….. ! But, everything has added up, has given me something which I know would be useful someday … and it has cost me a lot lot …. a lot of things ! It has for sure shaped my personality … or so …
Have been trying to question it out with my mom … these last few days … that what ever I have gained has been worth it!!! That going ahead with Vita Peracta is the right choice. It been tough convincing her, someone who had dreamt so much for me, about my MS and PhD et al… but yes… its happening … no not the MS .. but me convincing her!
Its been truly magnificent …. trips to pahadi, khetri … gaumukh, rishikesh rafting, the campus walks with Abhi and amruth, the under statue talks with Krishna and JB, the gay-like feelings and cries, being a spec to “the” sessions (planning to join sometime soon) with the wing, (supposedly)bird watching@ Pilani, NFS and CS, conceptualizing my own FUNDA’s and some Acads too!
I realised … that I have always been running after things… that make my heart pump harder and makes the adrenaline rush through my veins a bit quicker ! Yesterday it used to be Acads… today its starting up ! But … in the middle of all that there is also one thing I have been running after seeking for peace … her:) !
Its nice !
