Its funny how things affect you ...
Last week or two have been wierd …majorly because of a series I have been watching… actually its more about two characters named Lucas and Peyton, from one tree hill. I have seen like 5 seasons in span of 12 days. Its not that I haven’t done this before … saw 2 seasons of Prison Break during a weekend, saw 3 seasons of LOST during my 2nd year compres … span of 15 days… 1 season of heroes in 2 days and so is for a few more series!
But … dunno why … one tree hill & more so .. peyton and lucas have left an impression.
Since, its about highschool … love… dreams …about life after you jump out from your safety jacket of family/parents … into the real world, to make your own mark. At the crossroads, when you would be saying goodbyes to a lot of people, whom you have shared a lot more than just a room, a wing, a degree, a cheeseburger at sky, sam chat… discussions and arguments, fights and success too … and there are a lot many new people out there waiting for you to let them in and befriend.
This series, struck a chord and it sounded so rhythmic … I just felt like not letting this thing go off. It jolted me back to my schooldays…
…back then when you were sweet and innocent, had a classmate sis whom you used to tickle a lot and have good fun, a close friend whose pants you pulled down in public, about the many shirts which had torn off during the so called “rugby games” ( they were more like fights), when you used to mumble softly the kishore kumar melodies you loved and how the gal sitting next to you mistook it to be you hitting on her and complained it to principal ! About just having a wadapav down the corner, or having a gola/ pepsicola from the one rupee you had saved somehow/ stolen from the drawer…or running down the hallway to watch a cricket match with your dad. About having petty fights with your lil sister… always trying to make her cry … but being there always for her … forever. About winning the kabbadi matches for your class, and getting out just after hitting a six in the semifinals of the school cricket match tournament. About your mom actually beating you up ( with a bamboo stick )for losing 5 marks in the Math exam… and how your dad asked you to calculate the speed/ distance left et al on the road trips in your maruti 800 car !About so many cute gals you liked but never spoke to … not because you dint have the guts … but because you weren’t …. well .. dunno why ?! About the fight you had with a police constable.. for being just too arrogant …running away and then going back in the fight to own your mistake and save your friends, going to military camp, treks in the sahyadris, breaking windows while playing cricket with same school friends.About celebrating ganesh chaturthi, gokul ashthami, holi, christmas etc. with family and your friends families. About you being in a small town, where you knew almost everyone and almost everyone knowing you to the extent when you got out on the street … you would inevitably smile at some known face but although you dont know his/her name. About how, back then things that usually mattered were so simple and easy to solve and accomplish. And lastly about always …always dreaming to be/ do something BIG. Dint know what :)
Things changed ! You changed … people too changed …
Back then you found friends just by acquaintance, getting to know the person … not because s/he goes to all classes and will give you notes, not because hes also doing electronics/chemical eng., not because he/she is good-looking, not because you will benefit by any means out of it.
When in college,how it was all about getting through IIT JEE and you made friends with all those ppl whom you thought were destined toget through and be with them …but hey… not denying the fact that … you met some really wonderful and great pals and are still great friends… but the intentions werent supposed to be like that. and thats the reason … why I dont have any cherishable memories of this phase of my life… except getting felicitated at myriad gatherings for my 10std exploits ( I could never tell this to them … I owed it to my friends and teachers … mom n dad ).
BITS Pilani has been an experience in itself. People at pilani are so special (why? … will write a couple of posts later … from the experience I have had at IIT kanpur where am interning currently for this summer)… or for sure become special by the time they pass out. CEL … yep changed me drastically, but never thought that any media source … like the zillions of series and movies and songs would affect me and my likes/dislikes so much. This period was marked by how you went about getting the guts to start flirting with a gal, liking her, asking her ! … about telling sumone that you had a crush on her… about standing up to your dreams and wanting to go against the tide … when you convinced your mom that research wasnt meant for you, and how you were cut out for something else … rediscovering yourself… about your pathetic performances in tests after tests… about growing up…about being sorry for a few choices you made and think you shouldn’t had ever done… about resisting yourself from smoking and drinking… about making caffeine your daily dose at ANC 1am a habit, about a couple of cute gals whom you wouldnt even speak with … just because your funda told you … its not worth … because it wouldn’t be special … blah.. or something like that !
Most importantly !
It was about letting your gaurd down and let a couple of friends in… to the inner you. There were 4-5 friends, with whom I shared a lot more than a bed ! haha ( though … sadly all were guys). Seriously !?… I am very happy I met these friends, to whom I have told everything about how I feel about the most important people and most important things in my life. And this is where … Payton and Lucas come into the picture … and even other characters in one tree hill. I simply adore the role played by her … to the extent I actually fell in love with it… been weird. Its how I have always been … putting up a joker like face always for all those people whom I care about to some extent … because a small giggle here and there … makes it really worht it. But, when you open out to someone completely … and moan about all bad things ever hppened to you and how you are at crossraods always and how tough it is et al…then it means … that person means a lot to you… sincerely ! Because … now you too expect him/her to care about you. BUT… you are afraid of only one thing … that they wouldn’t leave !
But then …. things change … people change … and YOU change ! Its inevitable …
Sometime ago … had said this to one close friend of mine … “Keep it Simple” ! Its tough dude … things involving emotions/ heart/ love/dreams are beyond logic and shouldn’t be ever … ever measured by logic… right or wrong … all such things shouldnt be judged !
Its funny … how one tree hill… just took me back to all this … while I was lying on the bed in my hotel room and just couldn’t sleep …
